I can not stop thinking about how I want things to be. I worked on being positive today. Then right when it was time to go the boss got into one of her moods. Yelling her demands. She doesn’t deal with stress well. Some days it doesn’t bother me. Then others days I am thinking how the hell can she talk to people who way. When I gave her what she needed, she instantly calmed down. Can I say I wish I could take a long break from the work force.
I am scratching some tickets tonight. That is always my answer to a bad day. It could turn my frown upside down. I was trying so hard not to frown today. I wanted to stay positive. I was good until about five minutes to five. It is to early in the week to be pissed off. I have four work days to deal with. Stress usually makes me want to eat. Driving home I was thinking how will I just eat the meal I have set out. I felt like I wanted to vegetate. Eat away my problems and stress.
Eating is not going to change my situation. It is just going to give me another issue. Gaining a whole bunch of pounds. So far so good. I ate my Salmon, salad and broccoli. I am feeling full and drinking my tea. I did have a coke zero today. I did not drink any coffee. I can pound down cup after cup during office hours. I know I like the cream more than the coffee. So no coffee for me today. This is the first day in many at work I have not had coffee. I am personally shocked I made it through the day. I am on my way to completing day two of my food mission.
When I put my mind to something it usually gets done. I am trying to stay focused and stop seeing things as impossible!! Anything is possible!!