I am starting to feel very lame. I have not done much today at all. I was invited to go out. I wasn’t in the mood and my back has been having issues. I am sure I could have made it. My motivation to do anything is at an all time low.
A friend gave me a lecture that my life needs to be alright regardless of children or husband. I can’t deal with that at the moment. I can wait on the husband. When I am ready to have the baby I am going to stay positive that it is going to happen. I can not mentally deal with that let down right now. I am transforming my life for these children I desire. I know in my heart I am making the right decision.