I have decided I have to do something about my weight. I am finally serious. I was kind of upset today. A co-worker started spraying Lysol when I broke out my healthy food. I need to stop letting things upset me. I am so sensitive these days. I don’t like it.
I need to get back to not caring about what anyone else thinks. I am so ready to move and get this party started. I know gods time not mine. I think he might need to hurry up. I won on another scratch ticket. It is sitting on my dresser not fully scratch. I need to fantasize for a few days. I hate to say it. It helps me get through my work days. When you really don’t want to be somewhere it helps to have something else to think about.
If a decent amount of money comes into my life. I would forget the short sale get renters and move. There is reason I didn’t do that in the first place. I would lose money with renters. Due to the rent rate being so low in my neighborhood now. Yeah sucks to be me.
Life is stranger than fiction anything is possible. My co-worker won 700 bucks at the casino. I know I should be focussed on such irrelevant things. It just keeps my mind out of dark places.
I need to be focused on the positive. I don’t think I am going overseas. Due to my age and wanting to get pregnant. Also scoring so damn low on that AMH test. .72. That scared the paints off me. I want to do testing here in GA.
What stops me is in MA health insurance covers the majority of the testing. So I don’t want to get a job that pays for such things and I wasted my money. I also don’t like to start a job and have a hundred doctors appointments. I don’t know which way I am going these days. I was told one day at a time. First things first. I need to get rid of this damn house. I have to pass my paperwork in again on June 1st.
Maybe someone will be kind to me and make it happen. That would be great!! Here is to the positive. I am going to stay positive and keep hope alive that everything will work out.
Today I start P90X. I have been eating right for three days now. Here is to losing 30 pounds and having a beach body. My new resolve is to be positive and believe anything is possible!!!