I have been addicted to Youtube for a few years now. I watch videos about everything from pregnancy to how to’s and so on. I fell in love with this one YouTube family. They had been on YouTube for a multiple of years when I started watching their videos. They had two children together. He already had two children. Which made the grand total of four kids. Then they were married it seemed so grand. They showed the kids progress and so on. Their videos ranged from random to funny. Their relationship seemed so great. They did things as a family. They worked a lot to keep the family going.
Well yesterday they had an announcement. I was thinking are they pregnant again? I wonder what it could be. I listen closely for the news.
They are getting a divorce. My mouth dropped. Of course they didn’t reveal much of how this relationship came to an end. They mentioned they haven’t lived together in months. A six-year relationship down the tubes. I felt bad for them.
The soon to be ex-wife did say something that makes sense We only know them for ten minute segments of their lives. We don’t know what happens day-to-day. There stresses and problems.
When I think of being a SMC I get depressed. Sometimes I think of how lonely it could be. I have to push that out my mind. Clearly all the relationships I have been in didn’t work. Or I would still be in them.
If I had children out of those relationship, I would be a single parent. It just wouldn’t have been my choice from the start.
I looked at this family with envy of something I wish I had. The truth is I am not a fly on the wall in their house. I don’t know if either of them cheated, abusive, can’t manage money. There is a lot of factors to make a relationship work. Clearly I haven’t mastered relationships myself.
The demise of a YouTube family makes me think of my life and what I need to do. I need to push through with my dreams. They might not happen another way.