I got paid today and more than half of my paycheck has went to bills. I am sure more will be heading that way. I need to check my mail when I get home. My apartment looks like crap. With my back going out all I can manage to do is take out the trash.
I know I am crazy and it is only 6DPO (Days past ovulation). My nipples have been very hard recently. Also painful to the touch. I am praying for good news. Not just some women hormones out of whack king of crap.
Because of conflicting schedule I haven’t seen my therapist in a while. I made an appointment for next week. I need some direction or at least someone to talk to. I feel like I am standing still watching life pass me by.
They started talking about my 20th high school reunion on Facebook. I am feeling old as hell. Then my aunt sent me pictures of one of her random friends getting married. I told her I didn’t want to see those pictures. She sent them anyway. Then when I mentioned it she said she had to go. I been to two wedding and it has made me feel WTF is wrong with me. So when I asked her ass to not send me those pictures she should have F@#king listened. I know she wants to gossip.
It gets on my nerves when people are insensitive. I couldn’t give a damn about a girl I never met and don’t know getting married. Good for her!!
I am sitting at my desk with a hot pad on my back. Which is getting better by the day. I feel bad for anyone with chronic back problems. This paid is no damn joke. When I am back to 100% I am going to try my best not to take for-granted my health. Laying in bed not being able to move earlier in the week. Made me feel grateful that this pain will pass. I felt a great appreciation for people who live in constant pain. So why do I punish my body by over eating. I have issues I really need to work out. Any who, it is Friday and I am so damn happy about it. I might wake up early tomorrow and get an oil change. I always go to the same place. It isn’t close to my house, but I trust these guys. They also don’t try to sell my shit when I asked for a simple oil change. Now all I need is five pm to show up quickly so I can make my exit.!!!!