I didn’t do much this weekend at all. My friend came over to download a few things to my computer. When I do it I always get viruses. I bought him lunch for his trouble of driving to my side of town. I use to live in his subdivision, so I wouldn’t feel guilty for putting him out of his way. My back is about 85% better. I still have a pain. It isn’t crippling like last week.
I have been a little depressed lately. I have an appointment tomorrow with the therapist and I will discuss it with her. I am feeling lonely. I got rid of the non-committal always his agenda EX. I told him I don’t want to talk to him anymore. He then asked me if I found a boyfriend and that is why I don’t want to talk to him. I didn’t even answer that question. Why I let him in my life for so long I will never understand.
I put myself online, and a few people seem interesting. One guy was interested and he asked me if I had Skype. I Have only used Skype once. I set it up on my new computer and I noticed I was the only one with a video up. Why would you asked someone to Skype if you don’t want to show yourself. First red flag. Then he did what I call kicking a disclaimer. He told me he looked a little different from his picture. The picture was old. Red flag number two. Then he went into what his race was. I looked back at his profile and saw it said other. Okay he shows himself. I had his face next to the profile. I didn’t see once resemblance to this picture. Okay dude why you paying for a membership to straight lie. First of all the picture was in black and while and looked like some model shot. Like it was taken by a professional. Usually people don’t take contemplating thoughts type pictures. I told him I was going to bed and cut that crap off.
I am not the type to play the catfish game. I really have been desiring a relationship lately. I just can’t put together how that will work with my baby dreams. I am going to have to figure this out.