I am starting to get my stuff together. Which is hard to do when you have no energy. I also wish I was already in Boston. It would be easier on the brain. To know I am going to have to pack up all this crap and move it across country is stressing me.
I put together the pack n play I bought second hand. It was clean no stains but smelled musty. I was tired and had it set up in my room. I woke up in the middle of the night and that smell was bothering me. I couldn’t take it. So yes I woke up at 1am on Saturday morning and started cleaning the damn thing. I was looking at YouTube video’s and reading articles of the best way to do this.
I didn’t have a hose. Also had no place to leave it outside to dry. I took this one woman’s advise and dropped it in the tub with detergent and baking soda. Then all the accessories except the mattress and changing table, I put in the washing machine. I washed the mattress and changing table with a sponge. I put towels in my living room floor. Set up the soak and wet pack n play on the towels. Then I had a fan on it all night.
Now it is set up in my room with out that musty smell. First mom duty completed. I am very proud of myself.
The bottles ugh. Everyone has a difference preference to which bottles to use. I did get a positive review on the Playtex bottles. Less clean up was the main pro to these bottles. But everyone complained that the inserts eventually start getting expensive.
I received and purchased a lot of these Dr Brown bottles. So that is what I am going with. With the only reason being is I have them already. Now I need to sterilize them. Everyone uses the boiling method. I want to use the microwave method. Which I am going to attempt this weekend. I know am going to have found my own way with this stuff. What I feel comfortable with, I wish I had more confidence with my choices.
I am going to the therapist tonight. Which I need, but I am beyond tired and really want to go to sleep at my desk right now. I will make it, because I do need it. My anxiety has been going down, not completely gone!!!
I been thinking about calling my ex boyfriend. It is strange that I miss him. I guess it isn’t strange I did love the man. Being that the last time he called I hung up in his face. I also didn’t have a nice conversation with him prior to that. I come to the conclusion that I am lonely. He is comfortable to me. Granted he has no idea I am pregnant. I know I need to move on in my life without him in it. I just want some companionship. I know husband aren’t always useful in these situations. These are the times I wish I had one.