I took the gestational diabetes test again. I went to my OBGYN appt. today. The midwife blasted me about my weight. I gained a total of 40 pounds I am 81/2 months. I already had a complex about my weight before I got pregnant. Now these folks could drive someone to drink as much as they harp on it.
It could also be a problem because I see a different midwife every time. I have seen them all once. Now I am working on seeing each one again. I called my aunt and she made me feel a lot better. My co-worker did also. It is funny when I go to the specialist I haven’t got one comment about my weight. Now am I happy about 40 pounds. Hell no!! If you been reading my blog. You would know this baby journey was not simple or easy. I am still paying off the thousands +++ dollars I paid to that fertility clinic that did not bring me a baby. That is when the food got out of control and I was trying to comfort myself. I was so upset it wasn’t happening. I even started seeing the therapist at this time. I was having so many issues coping with possibly not having a baby. So I gained weight then. I am 87 pounds away from my ideal weight. Not 40 pounds. Yes I gained 40 pounds walking into their office. But the truth is after I have this baby I am trying to get to my ideal weight. Not just my pre-pregnancy weight.
I asked her if there is any way I can have this baby early. She said we don’t do that anymore. There needs to be a medical reason. I am over being pregnant. I want a happy healthy baby don’t get me wrong. But I am ready for this stage to be over. I am ready to see my baby and become a mother. Then work on all that needs to be done. Weight included. I think I am going to join the program I was in again. I haven’t made the total choice yet. When my mother is here I will try to make the decision!!! This weekend I am working on my hospital bad for just in case. To be ready if when this baby is ready to make an appearance.
I am grateful for so many things. I am sick of wasting my thoughts and time on my weight.