Things happen!

20151128_104214-1.jpgI took my baby to the indoor gym. All she did was walk in circles for over an hour. She also practiced her yoga poses. It is better then her sitting there and crying like she did before. So I got a work out chasing her for my 12 bucks. All part of being a mom!!

Ok, I was shocked today. My baby climbed out of the pack n play. More fell out. She has been lifting her leg over for a while. Well I heard a thump, turned around didn’t see her. Walked around and she was on the floor. Of course she didn’t cry until I got over there.

She has never really used her crib. I am going to turn it into a toddler bed soon. Eventually she will be in that room. I hope and pray anyways.

My feelings for the plumber has increased. I always liked him. Now it is hitting the danger zone because I really like him. There are things about this man that I am not feeling what so ever. So we will see where it goes. I am the cut all ties and run type. Especially when things are not working out. Which will not work when he is always around. He has been in my family for over a decade. My mother loves him. I digress. I told her if it doesn’t work out she will live. She says be nice to him. I told her you can’t pimp me out to the plumber. We all know I am being dramatic. I will not be nice on command. If he does something crazy he will see my wrath. LOL. There goes my dramatics again. Well kinda!!!. I can be off the chain, probably why I am still single.

Clearly this man wants me. Which is a feeling I haven’t had in a long while. One day at a time. I told him I want to see Star Wars when it comes out. He has to do the work and ask my mom to babysit.

He is also going to buy Ava a kitchen for Christmas. We are celebrating this year. I have a little tree. I have been buying stuff. Two dolls, a big talking Elmo. We are going to do it up. She was so small her first Christmas. It is going to be on and pop-in this year. Almost 11pm. I need to hit the showers and get ready for work. I feel rich people have no appreciation of not having to work. Well since I have bills to pay, I will be there tomorrow. I hope all who are ready had a great Thanksgiving. I know some of you are in other countries. So I hope you had a great weekend if it is not one of your holidays.


God and Bad!!

I love my daughter in ways I could not imagine. Motherhood on the solo is also harder then I IMAGINED.

She started having night terrors and waking up in the middle of the night and staying up. I am trying to figure out the cause. What I been lacking is sleep and trying to deal with it. It is almost worst then when she was a newborn. I was off work then and could nap with her. Now I have to head to work and she goes to sleep from being up all night. I find myself turning on the TV and putting a pillow over my head. I don’t feel like the best mom when I do that.

I woke up this morning with my head pounding like I had a hang over. I don’t drink, so that feeling is crazy. My mother let me sleep for an hour and a half. Thank god for my mother. She drives me crazy, but I thank god for her all the time.

I have been dating. Shockingly, I would consider myself in a semi-relationship. I will say semi due to the lack of any declaration. I have mentioned him before. The guy working on my house has stepped up to the plate.

He took Ava and I to lunch yesterday. So we drove my car. It was easier then moving the car seat. He was so attentive to Ava. I was like wow this is how this feels. I don’t have to do everything. He has been around since Ava was two months old.

He has been working for my family for about 12 years. I feel comfortable with him. We didn’t start off well. Hopefully it will continue to stay positive. He is my first choice for the second baby. He is a great father to his kids. They are grown pretty much. I wanted a second baby.

You would think I brought this up. No shockingly enough it wasn’t me. He asked me about having more children when Ava was about 5 months old. We moved here when she was 2 months old.

It is nice to be wanted. I haven’t had that feeling in a long time. I am keeping hope alive. I need to buy some ovulation kits to be ready for testing next months.

I started my new job. My boss at that job quit. She has been there a long time. She is going to a great opportunity. I am stressed because it has been crash course training. I feel like my life always has to have some drama in it. Or is that everyone’s life????

I been working on my YouTube channel. Trying to get subscribers and viewers, to make it visual income. My first position for YouTube is to help people. I was watching one of the video’s about growing your channel. He said do something you are passionate you are about. I am passionate about living my life to the fullest with no regrets. Having my daughter was one of the most powerful choices of my life. That coincides with my missions statements of life. If I can help anyone else, my heart would be full.


Time management

My time management skills are awful. I want to sleep all the time. I am shocked that my job does not offer coffee. So I have to do coffee runs daily. I am going to have to figure out something with this lack of coffee situation. With my medicine making me tired. Coffee is a must. Once I get my health insurance under control. I am going to ask a doctor what to do about the fatigue side effect.

I have been at my job for three days. So far so good. No real complaints. Most people are friendly. I will be busy, which I like. Keeps the day moving. I am learning and wanting to know it all right now. Patients is not my friend. It is 10 pm and I feel like I am going to fall out. This is not good, I really have a lot to do. I feel like I never have enough time or energy to do much, but get through every day living.

Ava went to sleep early. I love my baby with my entire soul. Sometimes I still need a break. The woes of a single mother.