Stepping Up My GAME!!!

I have been working on my projects. I am my own worst critic. I always second guess my skills and how good or not good I am at things. I have finally gotten over 1k YouTube subscribers. I am constantly looking at the numbers to see when they are increasing. It is crazy to keep checking, but I can’t help it.

I have 60 pages in my book written. I am second guessing if it is good. I have been down on myself lately. I need to be positive and work on my attitude. God has been so good to me. I am getting out of debt. I have lost six pounds on Weight Watchers. Things are good. Why am I so down??

 

I need to pinch myself!

An opportunity has contacted through my YOUTUBE channel. Nothing might come from it. Which is my non optimistic ass thoughts. If things actually happen, I will have to pinch myself to see if it is reality.

Shit like this doesn’t happen to me. I will put it out there when or if things work out. I hate that I can’t really talk about it. Life is getting interesting.

Refurbished Tablet

Ava put her tablet in the toilet. I had to send it back to get a new one. Thank god for a two year no questions asked warranty.

It has been gone for a week. She asked the therapist for the tablet five different times. I have to say very obvious that she missing that thing. I know this is awful, but I miss it to. When I have other things to do, it keeps her entertained.

She is growing up in many ways. She is now in a toddler bed. Granted we are still in the same room. Long story on that one. She has a room. Since there is no man in my bed it isn’t really a big deal.

She will be starting preschool in May. Which I am hoping will push her along when she see other kids doing things she doesn’t do.

I am scared to death with the whole school thing. It is the next step. We are about to do the testing for her IEP. I am sure the teachers are going to love and hate me. I will be nice but I have expectations. Life shit in full effect.