My life has been through many stages. When I was small, I was taken care of but not a priority in my family. The success I have achieved in my life is due to a grandmother’s love. My grandmother was a smart, hard working woman. She worked several jobs and owned several homes.
If I could be half the woman she was, I couldn’t ask r much more. I get my work ethic from her. Also how cheap I am with money. I am not as successful as financial as my grandmother. I wish she were alive. I would have loved for her to meet Ava. She was amazing with kids. She could get Ava straight with a lot of things I feel I am lacking.
I was a fat child. I had a lot of stress and anxiety that made me eat. I started gaining weight when I was eight. I really felt unloved by my parents. As an adult, I know they love me. As a child, I didn’t feel that love.
I was molested by a family member when I was 13. Then my life really went downhill emotionally. I always did well in school. That was my own claim to fame. While ignoring and not having a lot of parental oversight. I did a lot of dangerous things that I am not proud of. I never got into drugs. I have seen how drugs took people down, and that isn’t where I want to be.
Food is a drug I was kneed deep in my food addiction. I tried weight watchers and gained weight. I was at my heaviest when I graduated from college. 280 pounds with a shape that made me look 9 months pregnant.
I graduated and finally joined a 12 step program for food. It took a year of trying, but I finally started taking it seriously and lost 100 pounds in eight months. I felt like a new woman. I had confidence in full supply.
Before the weight loss, I was scared to do anything on my own. After the weight loss, I moved to Atlanta and didn’t look back for 14 years.
Atlanta life was crazy. I worked, but I went out all the time. I was thin, and no one knew me. I was living life, with no restrictions. I dated and still didn’t figure out the relationship thing.
Once my neighbor told me she wanted to have a baby by herself. I wasn’t on board immediately. Once we went to the first single mother by choice meeting, and I heard the ages of these women, that is when I was ready.
Then when I took the fertility test and failed. Once I thought I would never have a baby, that is all I wanted. Now I have my baby and GOD through me another curb ball. I have a special needs child.
None of my life I could have predicted. Some are a lot better than others. I know I have to appreciate every moment of my life. I have a friend whose life was cut short this year, shows me with the ups and down I need to enjoy every moment.