Things are going my way!!

I have to say I am so blessed. Everything is going right. I could win the lottery but this a close second to that fantasy. I got rid of my house. I just found out I don’t have to pay any tax on the forgiven debt of my short sale. I found this out via research so I pray it is accurate.

I got a promotion with a sizable raise. Which will fund my baby making journey. I live with great people.

My roommate had a in interview today. Please put prayers out there for her. I hope she gets it and it is a great place for her to work.

To continue with my goodness. My car passed emissions.  So I didn’t have to pay the 600 bucks for a catalytic converter and a  H2 censor.

A friend of mine who is also on the single mother by choice journey dream seems to be coming true also. With a great co parenting situation. I wish she would blog too. I would read it she has so much to say. (I put that in because she reads my blog lol)

I have to say things are great. I want to keep that going. I did gain some weight. I am not happy about it. I am not stressed about it either. Which is new place for me to be.

So of course I have to mention my dating situation. I called this guy and cancelled a date because he seemed desperate. I want a man to want me. Not just any woman he can put in that spot. Well he left me a great voice message saying we can just hang out. No expectations. It was such a sweet message I called him back and thought it would be a great idea.

Well I regretted that decision. After I got off the phone with him. He sends me a texts and says we had a vibe. So if I am attracted to him what would I do about it. I am like WTF !!!. We decided on being friends so I thought. I have attractive friends. I am not jumping there bones after we hang out.

I was pissed off with the questions. It sounds like he doesn’t really want to be friends. It would just be a ways to ease into what he really wants. Which is crazy because we have never met and also haven’t had many conversations.

Either way he has made me feel uncomfortable. I am going to have to let him know I doubt there will be any dates.



Thank God It's Friday

I have been so sleepy. I am glad the weekend is here. I am going to sleep my butt off.

I have been enjoying the single mother by choice forum lately. I guess because I have been reading and commenting. It does help to be involved. I did write another blog. I was told it might be posted on the website or put into their newsletter. Cool, I am excited. I have to say I appreciate so much when someone thinks my writing is worthy. I am am my own worse critic.

I have been watching the movie Plan B over and over. I am trying to reaffirm I can be a single mother by choice. Now that everything is moving into the place this could happen. I have been feeling less strong and more weak to the choices I am about to make.

I am 37 now. I feel it will be full steam ahead when I am 38 or a little before. I told my neighbor about not scratching my tickets because I don’t need extra money right now. He told me if I win put the ticket in a safe deposit box until everything goes through. Wow that is a great idea. I probably still will not scratch them. I don’t even want the thought of the money.

I will just keep my fantasizes for the moment. Moving back in with my mother has been on my mind. It is easy to think about the good things. I know living with anyone is a adjustments. We all got are ways we like things. My mother especially. There are going to have to be limits on both our parts. I am not a 12-year-old she can boss around. So she can not play I am your mother card. I have been an adult for a long time now. I know to her I will always be her baby!!. I know I will understand when I have my own children.At this moment I am optimistic. I was talking to a friend and told her all the things in our lives we verbally claimed a long time ago. The laws of attraction are working.  I need to get back into that law.

Merry Christmas

We Wish You a Merry Christmas (video game)

I wish everyone a great holiday and many more. This year I am going to focus on being blessed. I have many things to be thankful for. Granted I look at my life and see gaping holes that I want filled. I desire things that I haven’t been able to make happen. It really gets to me at time.

This up coming year I know will bring new blessing. I have a feeling my life will be changing. I am staying focused on the positive. Which is very difficult for me because I am such a negative person. I am going to work on the Laws of Attraction this year. When I put my heart in soul into that state of thinking, Great things were happening.

Then I fell off as usual with everything I try to do. I need to stop focussing on the past which I cannot change. My head has been stuck in my past mistakes. How I wish I had baby desires earlier. How I wish I sold my house before the housing crash. How I wish I should have given that guy a chance who really wanted me. I can wish all I want, but those things will not change.

My plan is to leave those things in the past.  It is hard but I am really trying to work on it.

Lipo Dreams.

plastic-surgery-0902-01I day-dream about plastic surgery. Another if I had money wish. I would go straight for the gut and inner thighs. I am not a big fan of my butt but I will leave that alone. There would be no more gym craziness if I had some lipo. Granted if I had the money I would want to have my kids then the lipo. I wouldn’t want pregnancy to mess it up. How do I live in my head so much. It must make me sane to deal with the reality of my life.

I am under the firm believe anything is possible. So my fantasies in essences can one day become reality. Hey it keeps me going!!! Sucking out the fat in those two areas would make a whole world of difference. If you can afford it do it. I know I would!!

Prosperity Fast

I know this will interest some, and will not interest others. I will begin with I met this guy who told me I had positive energy. Yeah I know it sounds hookie. That is what I thought at first also. Then he told me about the movie The Secret. Which I remember my mother saying something about years ago.  He continued to tell me that the movie didn’t give all the needed information. It gave you a glimpse into the Law of Attraction Powers. He bought me a book Working with the law. The 11 truth principles by Raymond Holliwell. Yes I was shocked this guy I went on one date wanted to buy me a book.

We have lost contact but his impression on me has lasted. When I was focussed on being positive, Positive things happened. I was practicing with enthusiasm back then. I swear several positive things happened. I couldn’t believe my luck at the time. Or was it luck?  My mind was creating positives in my life. My practicing of it went down the drain but it did take a while. I want it back. I need some positives in my life. Not the negatives I am sure my brain is creating.

So I copied it in this post. If you are interested give it a try. Be sure to let me know what happened if anything. 🙂

Someone at my job asked me to join a prosperity fast. You have to read this for 40 days.

Prosperity  Affirmation
Read  Every Day for 40 Days
I am the source of  all wealth. I am rich with creative ideas.My mind abounds with new,original,inspired thoughts.What I have to offer is unique,and the world desires it.
My value is beyond reckoning.What the world needs and desires,I am ready to produce and give.What the world needs and desires, I recognize and fulfill.The bounty of my mind is without hindrance or limit.Nothing can stand in the way of my inspired creativeness.
The overflowing power of   God life energy overcomes every obstacle,and pours out into the world,blessing and prospering everyone,and everything through me.
 I radiate blessings,I radiate creativity,I radiate Prosperity,I radiate loving service,I radiate Joy,Beauty, Peace, Wisdom and Power.Humanity seeks me and rewards me. I am beloved of the world.I am wanted where ever I go.
 I am appreciated. What I have to offer is greatly desired.What I have to offer brings a rich reward.Through my vision the world is blessed.Through my clear thinking and steadfast purpose, wonderful new values come into expression.
My vision is as the vision of the mighty ones.My faith is as the faith of the undefeatable.My power to accomplish is unlimited.I, in my uttermost God Source,am all wealth,all power,all productivity.I hereby declare my financial freedom ,NOW and henceforth forever!
                            Author Unknown

A Partner Appears

Talking to a close friend I found my partner in my working with the law journey. I just felt the vibe that she would make the perfect fit for this mission. I explained to her what I was trying to do. She was immediately excited.

Jackpot I found my partner. I ordered her the book working with the law immediately off Amazon. We planned to have a phone meeting once a week. The first thing was to find exercises to practice working our minds. I knew I needed something to jump start this process. Her first contribution was change the channel. When we have negative thoughts to change the channel and replace it with a positive one. I still didn’t have the fire but hoping this would help.


My choice of a partner turned out to be a great decision. We had a lot of hits and misses with our weekly meeting.

Thanksgiving was coming and my partner was going out of town for a much needed vacation. She went to visit a friend in Florida. She came back with something that was going to bring us to the next step. I can do it by Louise Hay. The book was given to her by a friend on her trip.

She couldn’t wait to tell me what happened. She was telling me how success and happiness of her friend’s life. Her friend gave her the book unaware of the journey we were on. My partner was beyond excited. This immediately got me excited.

The law of attraction had to be working. Randomly she was given a book that we needed to continue our work. The book came with a CD

The Fire Dies

Several months of working with the law has changed my life. The problem was I was not working it with as much enthusiasm and fire as when I started. I could make excuses but the truth is I got lazy. In the book, working with the Law, it expresses practice. Working the muscle of the brain needs to be constant in my life. My negative thoughts were out weighting my positive ones. I wasn’t even trying after awhile. I needed to regroup and start over. I than had to go home to Boston for a funeral then positive thinking went totally out the window. Family and drama is not a recipe for positive thinking. I felt I needed a partner to help me stay motivated. I was on a mission to kick myself in the ass.

I actually saw a lot of positive changes in my life. I guess it is like exercise then you fall off the wagon. So I need a partner to get me jump started. She needs to believe this is possible. Also have the desire to go on this journey with me.  Wish me luck!!!

Working with the Law

The journey I am on started very randomly. It all began with a guy I met online. We talked on the phone for about a week.  I of course told him about my life in great detail. We had several intense conversations. That weekend we met at a restaurant of his choice. He even brought information about my medical condition that he found online.

By the end of the lunch we settled that we were going to be friends. We continued the date at a local pool hall. He shared his cigarettes (yes I smoke working on quitting.) He told me I had energy. I was weary he might be crazy, but intrigued by what he was telling me. He asked me if I ever seen the movie the secret. I remember the secret from my mom mentioning it in 2006. She seen it on Oprah and was really into it. I just yes her to death and put no effort into learning what it was about. He told me he was going to buy me a book: Working with the law, 11 truth principles for successful living by Raymond Holliwell.

The next day I went to my neighbor’s house looking to borrow some movies. I downgraded my cable because Comcast is to damn expensive. I had a bunch of movie channels; I had to admit I never watched. I was going through his countless movies. After flipping through a bunch of horror, and actions flicks the movie The Secret appeared. It was less than 12 hours after the secret was presented to me at the pool hall. I asked my neighbor why he had this movie. He said he had it for his mom. Now this was a sign, my journey began that day. I watched the movie and started to think of the possibilities. A week later true to his word I had the book: Working with the law in my hand. I knew my life was about to change.