I am going to work on more regular entries into my blog. Work has been hectic with my new position. Hell with my old position which was filling in for the lack of head count is now my new position. Pretty much I been stressed for a while.
I am going to either post during my lunch break. Or when I get home. First it is therapeutic I also love having a log of my life.
I did start vloging my SMC journey on my YouTube channel. I have to say I was unsure about doing that. I still am but I want to share my experience. I guess I am going to go with it until it presents a problem.
I picked up Caffeine again. I know it hinders pregnancy and I need to put it down again. It sucks because I love Caffeine.
Yesterday I sent in a lot of paper work to the women’s center I will be going to for my insemination This is becoming more and more real. I am excited and totally scared out of my mind in the same breath.
I haven’t closed down my personal ads online yet. I have such a love hate relationship with online dating. I hate that it has not yielded me the man of my dreams. I do love the attention that I do not have in any other aspect of my life. I hate to talk to the idiots that tend to like me online. I do get a little excited when I get an new email expressing interest in me.
Yeah after writing that I realize I am a special case of crazy with online dating.
My roommate situation is lovely and hard at the same time I think the people I live with are great. They have been nothing but gracious to me. Sometimes I miss living alone and being by myself. I really need to get over this. I don’t think I will be living alone for a very long time to come.
I did meet a new guy online last night. People think I am crazy for being totally honest. I let them know I am looking for an activity partner. I would love a relationship but I have plans to inseminate and if that bothers you let me know now. Shit dating hasn’t gotten me any closer to marriage in all these years. Why lie now??
Well this guy thought it was great and had no problem with it. We will see how long this last. He also asked me a sexual question. Such a red flag to me. I told him I am not answering any sexual question until after we meet. I swear why do so many men lead with what is between their legs. He could be the greatest guy in the world. The computer meeting gives him the security to ask all kinds of perv questions he probably would never ask in person. I swear I am back to love and hate the net.