I know my prayers have changed over the years. I am so grateful to have my baby. My life is completely different. Even when she drives me crazy, I am still so in love with her I can’t take it.
I am praying to be a stay at home mom. I know it is not rational. I am the only income in this family. God can move mountains so why not pray for what I want. I want another baby and to be a stay at home mom in my own house. I pray that Ava delays are minor and easy taken care of. Her Speech therapist said she is doing great.
We have a delay test with a doctor coming in May. I am praying that everything is minor. We will see all I can do is stay prayed up. The therapist did make good point that she is still very drolly. I looked online and she could have enlarged tonsils which is what the therapist thought. Or her molars could be coming in. I notice she is always congested. I need to make her two year old appointment in May. It can wait to then. I have just started this job and not ready to ask a bunch of favors on time.
I already have to take a few days off in May for her Delay test. God is good and things are on point. I have a snow day tomorrow. No work, Yeppie!!! You never know what is around the corner. I appreciate all my blessing and can’t wait to see what else my life is going to bring.
This is the first speech therapy appointment and it went very well. I left the room and let her do her thing. I could hear everything, and it was very interesting. God is good and I need to have faith. Stay prayed up.
So she put things in perspective. She does have delays and she doesn’t want to minimize that. Granted they have no clue if she could catch up. Which could happen, you know I am praying it will. I will deal with it if it doesn’t.
I really like her therapist. We have a hearing test and a developmental intake coming up in the January. I am blessed that I have a half a day on Friday. To do all these appointments and be there for my daughter in all things that she needs.
Having more kids seems like a lot at this point. I know I hated being an only child. Granted I have a cousin who is my brother even though we don’t have the same parents. I want my child to have someone connected to her. Granted I don’t know if I have the strength, energy and time for another child. I am going to THUG it out if it happens.
New man in my life has made me feel like I’ve been missing a lot not being in a relationship-. Granted I dated a lot of men who didn’t have there shit together. This guy has his life together, and doesn’t need me for anything. Which is a good place for me to be.
I feel like I am falling in love with this man. I am not telling him about it. That is going to take sometime before he will hear those words. Which is so strange, I will tell strangers online and not the man I might be falling in love with. You guys know how it is. Not ready to put even those intentions out there. I like that he is very interested in what my daughter needs. Granted he doesn’t really play a hand in it. It is nice to have someone to talk to and shoulder to cry on. He did say he would go with me to her tests. It feels good to have someone to depend on, more then anything. Which is something I taught myself not to get use too in the past.
Okay in the interest of finding something for my child to do. She is sick. The day after the indoor gym, my baby was sick. By Tuesday I rushed her to urgent care. She was put on antibiotics. She had a raging ear infection.
Then today we went for her 18 month appointment. The doctor rushed through the appointment. I was not happy at all. For some reason she thinks I am a welfare mom. I only picked this heifer for convenience. To make it is worse she is a black woman. Putting me in the category of low income mom. I really didn’t like her when we first met her. My mom liked her. I am switching doctors on Monday.
She did give me the referral to get Ava’s hearing check. Now I am going to have her delays reviewed by a specialist. This is the same woman that thought I didn’t need to call early intervention. I need to be an advocate for my baby. She will always know Mom has her back.
Her speech therapist came on Friday. Ava was still sick and not in the mood for her. She understood and will be back next Friday.
The shining star in this whole situation. Is the new man in my life. Granted I talked to family members today. Also close friends, and expressed my feelings towards my child’s delays.
The new man in my life will be at her doctor’s appointment with me. Can I say WOW. That really made me like this man even more. My mother is not good in certain situations. It is for a man in my life to have my back. That has not been the case in many situations in my life. I felt like I was in a relationship and still going it alone. Hopefully he comes through. My friends said they hope he is the guy for me. I have to say I hope he is also.
We will see time and action will tell. We all know actions speak louder then words!!!!