I have some money in the bank. I was thinking of treating myself. That is so hard for me to do. I have no idea why. I go to work every day. I am always in the world of adulting. Thinking of my responsibilities have always been a big part of my life.
I still have a sizable debt. I have been doing great to lower it.
I wanted a new camera for my youtube channel. Then I talk myself out of it. I don’t have a big audience. I haven’t made as much money as I am investing into youtube.
Then I started to think. It is very nice to have people watch my video and comment. The truth is I like doing youtube regardless of my subscribers. If I didn’t I really wouldn’t have gotten this far with it.
Then I want a new computer. My computer has Vista on it. That shows you how old it is. Then I think there is nothing wrong with the computer. It works fine. I don’t do much on it really. How much is a new computer needed? It is hard for me just to buy these things because I want them. There is no real need for either thing.
There hasn’t been something I wanted so bad in a long time. Other than my baby. That was the last thing and only thing for a substantial part of my life that I wanted in a bad way.
I am not very materialistic. I am not into clothes. I wish I did my makeup more often. I have a lot of it. I just don’t have the time in the morning. I am so low maintenance. I recently went to the nail salon. My toes and nails look wonderful. I should do that more often. The problem is I can’t take Ava with me. She would not do well with me indisposed. She is not the sit their type of child. I didn’t want to ask my mother. She watches her so much. I broke down and asked her when my toenails were catching on my sheets. Yes so embarrassing. They were long just jagged for whatever reason.
