I am free!!

Nuke Everything and Start Over

My short sale went through. I have moved. Thank god!! At the last min I was required to pay another 1,100 bucks. I wasn’t prepared but thank god I had it. My savings is depleted but I can start over. I have officially moved into my new roommate situation. $400 bucks later and ten years of my life has been moved to two rooms of my friend’s house.

I joined the gym and plan to use it. The young Latino guy at the gym desk was flirting with me. I have to say I enjoyed it. The Military Man has not been attentive this weekend. He said he had to work during the weekend. I put on the sad face. I do like him.

My room is almost put together. My new life begins and I am working on getting ready for it. I finally separated myself from that house. I have to turn everything off tomorrow. Then the separation will be complete.

Life is stranger than FICTION!!!

I really don’t have time to write this post. I have been missing in action for a while. So much has been going on. Some I planned some I could have never imagined.

My short sale should closes on Friday. Then I am moving on Saturday. I will have two roommates. I haven’t lived with anyone but my dog in years. I am hoping a praying this is a great experience. My dog is coming with, and will be left with them when I make the final move.

Well yesterday my boss gave his two weeks notice. Then I was told they wanted me for the position. I have to say I was flabbergasted, dumbfounded. Not that I didn’t think I could do the job. It is the fact of being recognized. I always have less faith in my abilities then others.

The problem is I have to turn down the job. One I am moving. I didn’t do all of this crap (prior posts) to stay here. Also the job is very stressful and I really don’t want that in my life. I would have never have ever guested this would have happened. As my aunt says god has jokes.

On the dating front. I met this guy we will call Mr. Military. He is in the army in CT. We have been talking and I have a crush. He seems so nice and sincere!! SO FAR!!! Let me put that out there so you do not think I went crazy on you. I have a thing for Latino men, and men in uniform. So we will see where my crush takes me. If I had the money I would move to Boston now. I have to wait several months to save for this move.

So much to do, so little money!!! Clearly my life I couldn’t have dreamt up!!

Final phase!

I signed the approval letter for my short sale. Thank you Jesus.

Now I have to focus on moving and when I will have to move. It could be as early as two-week. Yes I should have been packing and doing the necessary things to move. Clearly I did nothing. My friend said I don’t have much to move. I do tend to live like a college student. I need to go through ten years of crap. Starting this weekend. People will have to come and get their crap. My neighbor has stuff in my storage closet. She is getting a text to come and get it. Also I am giving my grill to another neighbor. He will have to come and get that. Not that I used it any how. My cousin left it when he moved. It would be great someone else can get some use out of it. The wheels are in motion. I can’t get off the bus now.

My mini move to a friend’s house. I haven’t been in a roommate situation in a long time. This should be interesting. I hope it all goes great. I am only going to be there for a few months. At most four. This is final phase of my paperwork. It actually went rather quickly. You wouldn’t know it with the stress I felt about the whole process.

I am ready to make the move home, but I have to do this in steps!! God give me the strength!!!

I am smiling!

Boston - Back Bay: Boylston Street (Aerial)

Boston – Back Bay: Boylston Street (Aerial) (Photo credit: wallyg)

I am in a good place. I finally feel like good things are coming my way. I now have three people interested in purchasing my house. Which sucks for me in the sence that I bought a house that isn’t worth shit.

It does relieve me from this house and I can get to the rest of my life. Now with these three offers the bank is taking it time getting back to t my realtor. If it isn’t one thing it is another. I know it will work out. I am not ready to pack but ready to move. I know that doesn’t make much sence.

On a brighter note I have been the bell of the ball on the dating website. I had my neighbor look at my profile and give me suggestions. Well they worked. I took his suggestions, and now I am getting a lot of message each day. Granted I have put the location as Boston. It is nice to get message asking when will you be in town? Even thought that is literally months away.

Who knows if some money comes into my life it will be a lot sooner. I do have a winning scratch ticket. In my usual fashion I have no idea how much I won. Here is to keeping hope alive.

Fighting Depression!

The bank rejected lowering the price of my house. I know all is not lost. But I wanted to cry at my desk. No man, No baby, stuck in a house. I know not the biggest problems ever. But they are my problems and I am ready to get on with my life. I am ready to leave this state.

My realtor is still on board. He did mention walking away. Many reason why I don’t want to go that option. The biggest one is the government garnishing wages for the difference. He said he didn’t know anyone that happen to. I hate statements like that. Meaning I could be the one that happens to. I am trying to do things the right way.

Maybe the people who came to see it will be interested. Please , Please, Please I am praying they are. I am so ready for this to be done with this.

I also have been dog sitting. I will never do it again. I feel so bad about it. These are good friends of mine. They will be taking my dog when I move. They are going to let me live with them before I move back home. So of course I  agreed to watch their dog when asked. Well this dog has shown his ass big time.

I have a dog but I am not a dog person. I should have never gotten my dog. We have muddled through the years. Well the visiting dog has shit and pissed on my floor several times. He also barked through the night because he was in his crate. I know he doesn’t sleep in his crate at home. I don’t trust that he won’t piss on something if I let him out.

I put my dog in the crate also so there was no favoritism. People think dogs don’t act like humans. Well let me tell you these two dogs have jealousy issues. When I let one out to be walked. They other one barks like why not me. I only put them in the crate when I am not there to watch them. So all day on the fourth we lounged around the house. Visiting dog acted decent until he was put in that crate. He is leaving tomorrow. Not a moment to soon I want some uninterrupted sleep.

I called my friend and told her. She is so apologetic. I feel bad!!! She offered to take me out when she gets back. I said no need you are willing to take my dog into your family and me when I need a place for a few months. I don’t need anything from her she is a great friend. Even thought her dog is driving me crazy.

My realtor responded to the bank with a reasonable response to their rejection. We will see if that does anything. God, God please help me unload this house!!!

If it isn’t one thing!!

The AC in my truck has a mind of its own. It wants to work sometimes. I really don’t feel like sitting in the car shop. I think I have no choice. We have a heat wave starting today. It will be over 100 degrees for a while. Joy, Joy my hour commute is going to be terrific. I went out at lunch to run some errands and it worked. Hopefully in five pm traffic I will have the same luck.

A friend called and might be interested in my property. Yay!! As I said I could careless who buys it. Just someone buy it dammit. I am still in my scratch ticket fantasies. It is the only thing keeping my sane at the moment. TGIF, I am so glad it is Friday. I wish my work was done and I was heading home. I have several hours to go. I am not motivated at all. Motivation and a paycheck. I have to suck it up and do what I have to, I need my paycheck.

My co workers smacking is driving me crazy. It is hard to sit at this desk and not yell over the cube do you realize you smack all day!! I know she doesn’t realize how noisy and un cute her mouth sounds are. I also have no right to say anything. I try to turn my music up, it doesn’t help that much. I need ear phones. It wouldn’t work well with my job. I need to be able to hear people and answer the phone. I am ready to go home and go back to bed.

My cousin is coming into town today. Also I have to carry my dog to the grass because the news informed me his paw pads would be burnt on the concrete. I am sure he is going to hate me carrying him. He will have to get over it. Either me carrying him or burnt paws. Big fun for me!!!

This needs to happen

They lady next door wasn’t interested. She directed me to her realtor daughter who might have someone interested. I need major positive vibes my way. I could careless who buys it. Just get it off my hands. If things worked easily It wouldn’t be my life.

So many things on my mind. I am ready to get this one-off my mind!! Home ownership was very overrated in my case. I am sure a lot of people feel that way. So trying to do the right thing and short sale instead of foreclosed seems like a big ass struggle. I have half the battle the bank. But if they came in any where close to what my buyer was willing to pay I wouldn’t be complaining my ass off on this blog.  I would be worried about packing and moving.

I know god is working for me in the background. Patients is not my thing. I am going to try my best and have some blind faith all will work out. I have had baby brain for about a week. I keep thinking about having a baby. I have to stay off Facebook. All people with their new baby pictures are making me jealous.

My friend also informed me today I look like a 13-year-old with all this acne I have. I have never had bad skin. This issue is due to the DHEA I am taking for my own AMH results. It is supposed to help with my egg quality. The bad skin is a side effect. Yah me!!! I will live!!

Good News/ Bad News

The bank approved my short sale. But (there is always a but) they counter at 10k more than what was offered. So my buyer is gone. All is not lost. I need to find a new buyer. My house has been posted again and I am praying a new buyer will appear quickly.

My realtor said we have a time limit. If I can not find a buyer then I have to do the process again. Which I don’t want to do that. Please old Please buyer appear. It is still a great deal!! I am working on staying positive and letting good things happen. I am nervous. I always been told fear and faith doesn’t work in the same heart.

I need more faith and less fear!!

Short sale Phase 2

I believe I made it through phase 1. They are coming to appraise the property. I wanted to ask so many question. Does this mean everything is good and it is going through? No clear answer on that. But I made it to the next step. 

regardless this is a good sign. 30-60 days I hopefully  no longer will be a home owner. I will be homeless. My first option to move might fall through. Thank god for plan B. My friends who are going to adopt my dog are willing to take me in for how long I need. They are so great!! It is a beautiful thing to have great friends.

I am going to keep praying that everything works out!! A friend of mine who had three children. Two through IVF said she truly believes she got her kids from praying everyday. I need to get on that band wagon. I am running on blind faith here, that I am doing the right thing!!!


English: John Alden House in Duxbury, Massachu...

Yes this is what the bank said will be in a letter to me. They denied my short sale. I was more than pissed. It had to do with one of their reps told me to do. I won’t be making that mistake again. I will be submitting again in a few weeks.

Nothing ever goes smoothly in my life. I need to let this house go one way or another. I will be moving to Massachusetts. I can not afford this debt too. Keep me in your prayers. My realtor makes it sound like no big deal. Just resubmit and we will get it done. I am glad he has no worries. It calmed me down after he sent a calm it is no big deal email.

My mom told me not to stress either. Well does anyone know I am ready to start my baby plans. I guess god is telling me to slow the hell down. I am ready to go and get it done. Nothing I can do at this point but wait.