Aunt Flow is here!!

No pregnancy this month. At least with this upcoming cycle I am not going anywhere. Known Donor and I have had a come to Jesus meeting. We will see if he continues to act right. I took yesterday off. I was mentally sick. I needed a break to just do nothing. Which is exactly what I did. I stayed in the bed to three pm. Then I got my ass up dusted myself off and rejoined the world. I think on a better note. I needed to be pitiful for a day.

When I got up I walked the park twice. I didn’t over eat yesterday. I had a hard time going to bed. Which figures after sleeping on and off for countless hours. I even did my Dance central 3 game on my XBOX. I am still keeping hope alive.

I have been lonely lately. I need to do more and meet people. I am back online. Yes what else is there to do at my age. I don’t want to join a bunch or random groups. Which is the usual answer from any non single person. I want one on one male attention. I find it hard to do while trying to make a baby with someone else. I am going to phrase my ad as looking for a friend to hang out with. Instead of I am looking for the love of my life. Which I have to say honestly at this moment I am not. Also I don’t have to tell them a damn thing. I think one of my major problems is I have a big mouth.

I am going to begin the soy isoflavone again today. 1-5 is to help achieve the pregnancy with old eggs. 5-9 is for multiples, 3-7 is a happy medium most women use. I am going for 1-5. Yes I would like multiples but if I have to get pregnant again it is what it is. It has succeeded in pushing my ovulation back. Which in my mind is a great thing. I am not sure if the cervical mucus is harming the sperm. I am going to look into doing something about that this month. I haven’t noticed an influx of it. Who knows, anything is worth a shot. I think I drink some Robitussin for a few days. I can do that. As you can see I am willing to try anything.

I just found this on a mommy website.

1-5 = you produce more eggs, and ovulate sooner, with a stronger ovulation.

2-6 = you produce more eggs that usual, but not as many as taking it 1-5. Eggs may be more mature, and ovulation will be slightly more strong than 1-5.

3-7 = The best of both worlds, a few more eggs, and all eggs will be strong & mature, and ovulation will be alot stronger than 1-5.

4-8 = No more eggs will be produced, but the ones already there, will be matured alot more than usual, and ovulation will be very strong. Ovulation may only be brought forward a teeny bit.

5-9 = You’ll have one very mature strong egg, from the ones you already produced on your own. Ovulation will either happen when it usually does, or a few days later, but your egg will be of great quality.

I might be going at this very wrong. I am going for 5-9 this month, or 4-8.


Baby Project #48

One insemination down. So I am going back today. He actually apologized again when I got there about standing me up on Sunday. I accepted his apology. There is something about getting an apology in person. Text message makes apologies seem worthless. I actually hate text message. It is the way people communicate these days.


I am feeling my ovaries doing something. Can’t really describe. I am keeping my figures crossed for success. The drive to his house is no joke. I am used to a long commute home every day from work. Now that I live closer I have become spoiled. I don’t like sitting in the car for long periods of time.


English: The Microsoft Kinect peripheral for t...

English: The Microsoft Kinect peripheral for the Xbox 360. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)


I have become obsessed. I want an Xbox 360 kinect with the dancing games. Here is the problem. I can slap my credit card down and purchase this at anytime. I actually can take the money out of savings. What is the hold up you ask? I bought a lot of things over the years, that sounded interesting and fun. Usually to work out. Which is the reason I want this, the workout games.


I am a lazy procrastinating mess. So that is why this has not been purchased. I don’t want to buy it and not use it. So I looked into to buying it used. These damn things are like Honda’s, they clearly don’t decrease in value much. I am also skeptical of buying something I can’t return.


So I am going to try my best to ignore my obsession. I have a treadmill in my house that barely gets used. Shame on me!!!