I was listening to meditation while I sleep for weight loss. It has influenced me. I am not always wanting food. Not eating great, but the positive effects are great. With this has come crazy dreams.
I had a dream I was in a room of females that I always felt had an issue with me during life. We were all hanging out and about to go out. Then the queen bee that hated me throughout high school. (never said anything outright, but you know how you can feel the hate) Well, her mother offered to show her face cleanser and how it would be great for my skin. She left me with this machine and I find myself cleaning this machine to do something nice for the mother and I broke it. The mother asked me what happened with judgement like she wanted to beat my ass. I said I was trying to help, and she said that is not what happened. I woke up and recounted my dream so I would remember it.
So I analyzed my dream in the car to drop off Ava. First off, the environment and situation was crazy. It was the perfect setup of folks I felt didn’t like me and I felt judge me. This person mother I have met in the past and felt she wasn’t my biggest fan either. So I was in a situation where I felt less than and go into full people pleasing mode and try to clean this thing I ended up breaking. Which is how much I fail when trying to please others and worry about what others think.
This dream seemed so real I was happy when my alarm went off to get me out of that uncomfortable space. These days these dreams have been so crazy!!!