I actually got motivated today and cleaned my room. I but an organization dresser from amazon. I am not the Do it yourself bitch. It took me two hours to put it together. I had to take it a part a few times and try again. Not that complicated, but I suck at putting things together. My room is looking amazing. I went to Amazon and ordered two more with different diameters. I can throw out the tv stand I was using as a shelf. I am trying to make my home where I want to be.
My job wants us to go back in the office. I told them the earliest I can come back is September when Ava starts school. She is in the autism center which is medical. I am not looking forward to this at all. So when it was there advantage they found a way for me to work at home. Now that it would benefit me, they want me back in the office.
My friend who is looking for a job, said there are thousands of work at home jobs. I don’t want to start over. I told my boss my mom is my only support if anything happens to her I would be screwed. She lost her mom a few years ago, so she understands. I have to admit if some money came into my life I would be out. Living my best life. I have lottery tickets on my dresser praying for financial freedom.
I also want more children, I have it all figured out. I have a half brother that I do not talk to. Long story not going to share at the moment. Well, I would have a lawyer call for his sperm and get an egg donor and a surrogate. I have no desire to give birth again. I also would want a DNA test to prove me are related. Mom’s baby dads, maybe. This is all my fantasy. My fantasy is so much better than my reality. I will get it done. I am going to bring my fantasy into my reality. At least I am working on it.